Hah

Seven years ago, or something like that, I thought about what life would be like in my future. I never went to college, never went to a technical school. Always had dreams of doing something better for myself and getting out there to be myself. Two out of those three things I never did. Being myself I'm almost there but not yet fully developed. I'm a late bloomer. Someone who just sits and waits to grow. I'm always starting to think that things that should be changing me are just something that doesn't affect me much. I can't get myself to think of getting married soon, or having a child with a partner that would love me as much as I love back. I'm looking forward to trying to break off of my procrastination habit. I do so much procrastinating its ridiculous. I'm trying to just be me at times. Thinking about what to do and how to be. I'm just a box full of worries.