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Reading between the lines at work. I started to notice that a lot of people don't like me, or are afraid of approaching me(am some people do scare me, too). I don't care much if people don't want to say hello first to me, if they do. But Its a pain in the ass, just trying to socialize alot. I'm not a Socially personable or anything like that. I just don't like to be put in a spotlight where I have to juggle two or three things while suffering a nervous breakdown.

When I came into work early today, I felt tired. I don't think I got a lot of sleep when I got up. I took my pill, swallowed it with some warm water. Just thinking nothing of it everytime I do, I go on line and just look at anything. I've been doing this since 1996 when they started giving out internet disks at the computer fair.

A long time ago, my mom got us internet service through dial up. Which was very slow considering that you had to hang up every phone in the house, that had been connected to one line, and wait for a dial tone from the other server. It was hard during those days; I remember leaving the net on once and forgetting that it had been left on since we left for long summer vacations. But that was then, now everything is fast. Food, sex, drugs, money and drinking are going at the rate of roaring river. And I'm here still getting my fill on masturbating every day and night.

I'm probably blabbing on about this and that. It's been a long day and I just wanted to write something without pulling out my hair.