Where you and I begin.

I had a very slow day. Well, it wasn't slow but I kept playing video games and relaxing for a bit. I start to do this every day, even though porn has replaced some of my life. I would think about other things to do. I played Bioshock when I woke up. I'm almost at the end of it, and I already finished it so many times, I feel like I know how the game will end. I tried playing it badly for the bad ending. Twice I know how that feels. Anyway, sometimes my day will go off sporatically I'll feel like I'm doing nothing but just sitting down and staring at my computer wanting something to change in me. But NOTHING ever changes. I get those moments of emptiness where I want to just go off, running and picking up a girl I don't know and just go to the movies and have fun. But I don't do that because I'm shy and would start to stutter if I pick her up and tell her were going to the movies.

I'm going on twenty six soon. I should start to change for a while. But I don't know where to begin, and where to end.